New year, new Me (hopefully!)

I suppose I say for everyone that the first semester has been difficult, having struggled to really get settled into the work the end of the calendar year really knocked me back and questioned whether I really wanted to carry on with the course, obviously I did its just when you feel low and really look at everything happening around you, wonder what the point of doing anything is really.

The first half flew by and even though I struggled with the first assignment I was optimistic that I could do the work and more effort on my part would see me rewarded with better grades and finding a lot more enthusiasm to do the work, I found that having got my first assignment in I could look forward more to the next and hope that I could improve on the grade that I got. The second half was a real struggle having never really settled the very end was almost a complete waste. I couldn’t concentrate and spent most of my time just meandered. I managed to get myself into a position that meant I had something to show for my somewhat poor effort at the end of the year. The New Year will hopefully bring more promise and more opportunities to get the grades I want.

Having not handed in two of the assignments I don’t really feel like last year has ended and worrying about being behind is making concentrating and getting the work done even harder. Trying to do 4 weeks work in 2 is hard enough and I must thank Julian for giving me advice and what he felt I could do to improve my work and valuable feedback that I had missed out on in college, I feel without his input I would be even further behind.

From the start of the year the direction I was headed was unclear, obviously a career in design but the actual direction is something very misty, I don’t honestly think that the first semesters work was going to give me a clear idea though having really enjoyed the photo restoration that will be something that I would love to look more into. I found out over Christmas that there may be an opportunity to make a Website for the Veterinary practise that my sister works at, that would be a great opportunity to test my early skills as a web designer and also be something to look forward to and to get my mind back on the right path of work and moving on with my life.

I am still sure that I made the correct choice in coming here, with everything going on at the moment I feel that being at home and being able to see my friends and family has kept me going and I feel had I moved away to university I would have struggled even more, with being an anxious person as it is trying to settle into a new course is tough but in an familiar place would have brought me running home probably.

Looking forward to the new semester, by finally handing in the two assignments left I can move on into the new year with a new purpose and new goals, quite what those goals will be remain to be seen as I have no idea how good my web creating skills will be just as yet, having made a very basic website before in college I feel that I know some of the errors that we made with that and I can identify areas that were good and that were incredibly poor and highlight what needs improving on.

I would like to say how I feel about going back and looking forward to seein
g what grades I may get and seeing what other people get, although it is a very tense time, I don’t think that people would deny that they get excited by the whole thing, I’m hopeful for everyone who has put the extra effort in this time that they can get the merit or even distinction grades they feel they may deserve and hopefully this time know what kind of thing that Steve is looking for, I would just like to think I can pass these two assignments and put an end to it as far as they are concerned and look forward to trying to get better grades in the next assignments.